Sunday, August 29, 2004

My Heart Freezes Over

I'm writing this with the hope that somehow it'll reach You because whenever I pray I feel that it only reaches up to the ceiling.

I feel so bad because I think you're not pleased with me. I feel that I have done or am still doing something wrong. You know my heart, Father, you know I want to please you. Tell me what I must do.

I really need to speak to You but I feel the communication is one way. I know, Father, that you have never left me, but these days I just cant seem to get in touch with you. I admit that it is my fault, I always neglect talking to you having the excuse of too much work and that the work is for you. I miss you, Father. Please talk to me.

I don't like what I'm experiencing these days, Father. I think my heart is freezing over. I don't care about anything anymore. I guess this is how it feels when the passion is gone from your heart. Its one of the most miserable feeling I've experienced. Set me on fire once again, Father, and may my heart be consumed with things that are of You.



4 comments:

Anonymous said...

pinoypandesal, i know how you feel. I'll update you with my next www.shing.tk entry. I believe you will understand...

Pinoy Pan de Sal said...

i read your entry. I'm glad you heard from God. Haay, sana ako din, soon.

brave coffee said...

hi ghie. i know how you feel. these days ganun din me. me naman, God told me to let go of a certain person, pero eto lola mo, disobedient kay God. don't want to let go. but ive realized that i cant go on this way forever. nakakapagod NOT being in God's will, no matter how big or small the things He would ask you to do or be in...

God gave me this word. Matthew 11:28. alam na natin tong verse na to. common verse na nga. parang wala ng dating at times sa sobrang common na nya, if you know what i mean...

Anyways, i meditated on it. and the word weary intrigued me at that time. thought i know by heart what that word meant, pero funny how God can show you a different angle or scenario related to the word.

weary means worn out. tired. fatigued. discontented and bored. thanks to mr webster! :) i was all that. i'm worn out by my sin. tired of my sin. discontented with my life due to the sin. bored with my life because i'm not in the center of God's will...

right now i'm in the process of letting go and let God. mahirap pero in the end i would rather choose God than anyone else in the world.

sorry for the long comment. :)

Pinoy Pan de Sal said...

I don't understand brave coffee... but you know me naman -- that when it comes to you, I understand even if I don't understand, does that make sense? :-) Anyway, hang on.. lilipas din ang bagyo, sisikat din ang araw.